My Story Part 13/20: Deep Loneliness

Here is Part 13 of my story!! :)

Hey everyone, here is Part 13 of my story!

In yesterday’s part, I talked about how a huge part of my journey has been finding a sense of belonging and connection with others. In today’s part, I am going to be exploring another side to this part of my story, and talking about the deep sense of loneliness that I have felt... and still do feel. I really want to open up and share about my experience from a deep place.

In the earlier parts of this story I talked about how I first felt really lonely when I began to feel isolated at school, and about how this set me off on a journey to learn to love myself. Since I’ve been on this journey I’ve come a long way and made a lot of progress... but to be honest I still feel really lonely a lot of the time. This past year has been especially hard for me with the pandemic and everything, and since I finished school last year I feel less a part of that community as well. I’m so grateful for all my friends who I connect with over Zoom and through texts and everything of course... but nothing can replace in-person human contact for me.

I’ve been hurting a lot lately since I’ve really been feeling a lack of connections. Sometimes I feel like I have no one to turn to and talk to and like no one really cares about me that much. I know that’s not true, but my pain runs deep and my thoughts get to me. I have a lot of pain I’m carrying around inside, and talking about it with those who are close to me helps a lot, but when I feel I don’t have anyone to talk to it makes the pain worse. I just feel so alone sometimes. I’m working right now on being kind to myself and being loving and accepting of myself through all these feelings. It just gets really hard.

I know I’m not the only one who feels this way, and if anyone else who can relate would like to share their experience with me I would love to talk about it with you :) I know things are really hard right now but I’m doing my best to keep hope alive, and that is what tomorrow’s part will be about!! Thank you so much for your support everyone, sending love to all of you!! 🤗❤️😌👍🤟💕💝💖 #MyStory #MyLife #Part13 #DeepLoneliness #Loneliness #Lonely #LonelyPain #BestFeelingEver

YouTube Link:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OPpBAE6fx1w

TikTok Link:

https://www.tiktok.com/@spongebobfanforever/video/6965970357287243013?lang=en&is_copy_url=0&is_from_webapp=v1&sender_device=pc&sender_web_id=6923877617301800454

Thanks everyone!! :)

Love and hugs,

Your friend forever, Adam Silverstein :) <3